learn it the hard way.
Friday, December 5, 2008
now i realise what ive done.how green was i?
ive ignored someone that had truly just wanted to be my friend.
and if it werent for that one friend, i would probably have just followed my huge ego and be alone.
i would have been all %#^$%@!#!!! laaaa. ( yea the 'laaa' must never be forgotten.)
i would have made the mistakes i made all over again.
now, ive decided that im going to go find that friend and apologise for being such a jerk.
hopefully, just hopefully i might see that friend around school.
it does help to have someone much older than you around.
helps you to think a little.
today. gosh today.
just a normal emo day for me.
hahaha.
yea. i didnt really talk to my friends.
but thank you to rizal, phyllis, alice, huili, linxi, ker wee, guoxiang, jason, jorden and jia hao for even talking to me today.
ahahaha.
my morning was okay.
guoxiang, ker wee, jorden and jia hao were there to help me through lab.
hahaha. we had to do everything again and im FINALLY starting to get the hang of it and understand what the experiment really is about.
so yeap, that was a plus.
afternoon was hell. but then i went lecture with rizal and i feel bad for almost not talking that much.
sorry man.
and then after that phyllis asked me join her.
nice timing girl. just when i was down and real lonely, phyllis texted me asking if i was at computer lab.
so at computer lab i remembered i had no paper.
went down to get them.
wahhh i tell you.
it's like morning traffic at the photocopy shop.
bumped into linxi there.
hahaha.
so that's where she talked to me.
up till before lecture.
alice and huili somewhat made me happy just by being around them.
it's all in the vibe.
hahhaha.
im just happy to have friendly classmates that talk to me no matter how glum i look.
:))
and today i did the one thing that ive never done.
but! it's one of the things that ive always wanted to try and do.
sit on the stupid toilet seat and cry alone.
never in my entire life have i broke down so badly over friends.
doesnt this show how much you guys mean to me?
im glad that has past.
let's just put whats past where it belongs. um... yea well, in the past.
hahaha.
i feel so motivated today.
i might just finally "let him know" later.
:))
damn.
i love my friends.
they give such great support.