just got home from starbucks. bahaha. too bad couldnt stay longer. COULDNT. anyway, here's something that was real amusing. okay there were jess stella me and zahidah on the back seat of the 291. before that me and jess were talking about how i didnt get to see my eyecandy for the whole day. then like as if god heard my craving, we saw him walking home. hahahaha! cool sia. jess was at the window seat. jess: EH! mashitah, its 'ABC'! me: where? OMG! YEA! abeh this zahidah. hahhaaha. she a bit cuckoo. zahidah: OMG! that's the uncle from sch! the one that always stare stare that one. us: YEA! as the bus was turning on the curb where ABC and the uncle was standing, jess and me: OMG! ABC! he's sooooo cute. (okay mainly it's me. hahaha. jess wouldnt say that.) zahidah: eh eh! looook look! the uncle! ahahahaha. WHAT THE HEH?!! people look at cute boy, she look at uncle. apppperla this girl. hahahaha. but it was damn funny uh because we were all "ohhhhhh" and so was zahidah, but she was refering to the uncle. but the boy beside her, macam paham. bahahahahaa.
oh. and photos!
{ 6:00 PM }
there goes Australia.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
omg. im so not prepared to have public speaking tutorial later. hahhahaa. was planning to watch Australia. damn it laaaaaa. arghhh.
{ 1:37 PM }
oh acoustics!
Monday, December 29, 2008
IM DONE WITH AMIC ESSAY! ohhhhh ho HOE, it feels so good. took a whole afternoon. which equals to 2pm to 5pm. break break break. 6pm tp 8pm. that's how long it took me to do that homework. sheesh. loooooooooooooooooooong day yesterday. to those who still havent done it, have fun. hahaha. youre going to need loads of it. :))
im youtubing acoustic performances. hahhaa. awesome-eh! bands with a female vocalist make better acoustics than male ones. but check this out. so contradicting with the statement above. hahaha. i think its cool and the guy with the guitar looks funny, like he's mental or something. hahaaha. they actually do great covers.
oh yea and im already in school. look at the time man. my stomach's starting a riot. hahaaaa. waiting. bye!
{ 9:59 AM }
baseball scene. :))
Sunday, December 28, 2008
favourite scene too. hahaha can watch this part over again.
and muse! *drools at 1.41 onwards. jasper hale or cullen or whatever. haahaah. yey! school tmr. I CAN BARELY WAIT.
{ 12:28 PM }
Late Twilight.
i watched twilight! hahaha. with jann jann rahimah and wany! awesome-eh! hahahhaahha. im in love with JASPER cullen. figured edward was too, verbal. heh jasper didnt even have anything to say. he is supercute! bahahaha. im loving this scene. well twilight, is um well, okay. you cant make everyone like the movie la seriously. i like it but not love it. id have another go just to see jasper again. teeeehee. also, id have another go on watching jim carrey on the ducati. hahahaha. oh oh. and here's from just now. first thing i said to them when we finally met up after 6 years. "eh! asal korang tinggi ni!?!" it means why is everyone so tall. hahhaa. classic conversation starter. I LOVE THEM MUCH. :)) this is just being ourselves. and this is some crazy idea from a mad mad MAD girl. hahaha. feeling feeling very the twilight uh konon. :))
{ 1:26 AM }
He Does Nothing.
Friday, December 26, 2008
my kitchen ceiling is leaking. wtf? im still wondering what the upstairs people are doing everytime. flood the whole house is it? sheesh. the toilet ceiling is leaking too. seriously seriously.
and i just found out, im good at sucking up. mahahaa. :))
okay! im quite early. hahaa. im actually waiting for the subject selection thing. tissue engineering and bpt! yea! woooooooooooooohoooooo. hahhaha.
am high. hahahaaaaaaaaaahahhahahahhahaa. BRANDS berry thing makes me high this morning. hehehhe. byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye!
{ 9:32 AM }
WOOP WOOP!
Thursday, December 25, 2008
look at the time. im still up. up and awake. so awake, i could do something but i just cant think of a bunch of words that fits right now. i would read my book but doing that is like reading through microscope. literally. the words are so tiny and squashed together, sardines lose! hahaha. ooooo.... my lame streak is back. just in time. bahaha.
i ate a quarter of a tub of icecream today. the big tubs. hahaa. before that i was chewing gum. after all the chewing, i was proud of "finally having an aching jaw from 3 hours of chewing." heh. that. gone. to. waste. and got burnt in the incinerator because now the aching feeling is gone. thanks to vanilla icecream. hahaha. yummy. night!
{ 2:31 AM }
do on MALARIA?
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
who knew amic would turn out to be so confusing?! argh... i got one pathogen as spare. MALARIA. that's what ive been told to research on. MALARIA MALARIA. im not gg to do that. BUT ALL THE REST SEEM SO FOREIGN. do malaria as emerging pathogen? wow. creative.
{ 3:18 PM }
Off With Amic.
finish amic. finish amic. finish amic. finish amic. finish amic. the whole day to finish amic. and then on friday choose combination. still undecided.
if you tell yourself to breathe, you cant. if you tell yourself to sleep, you cant. what do you call it?
{ 12:31 PM }
Holidays Are For MSN-ING.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
nothing much happened today. well, guess singapore isnt going to the finals against thailand. hmm... im just happy it was just like old times. for me for me. good old times. we made fun of every opportunity there was for a joke. next up, arsenal vs liverpool. im not predicting anything at the moment. :))
so yesterday night. stella uh, was chatting with me. but halfway through she went missing and im like "heh?" thanks eh babe. hahaha. and timothy. i dont know why you are still calling me "flat butted girl". oh yea. sry i ruined the whole tokio hotel for you. hahaha. im such a loser to be talking to only two friends online. hahahahahahaa. oh well.
my life is not really in the most active of periods. that's what we do during the hols. sit at home and go online. oooooooooh thrilling.
totally loving this. CRACK THE SHUTTERS!
{ 11:05 PM }
:))
Saturday, December 20, 2008
im officially jealous of cheryl and jess. haha. im gaining a whole lot of weight. i might wear a white tudong when school reopens. and "taboo" on tv freaks me out.
{ 11:25 PM }
yes man!
Friday, December 19, 2008
my upper left arm is numb. tetanus tetanus. mahahaha. fun seh the jab. hahahaa. for taking the blood sample, i asked jess to hold my left hand. then i could feel the damn needle so i bit her knuckles. hahaha. sry uh! i didnt know lady nurse also still can feel needle. mahahaa. should have seen jess' face. seriously freaked out la. i was the only one who took the tetanus jab yesterday. stella and jess accompanied me in the room. hhaaa. that was fun too. the nurse asked me questions but before i could answer any, this sanchai go and answer first. so im like "uh... yea. whatever she said." and she did all the explanations and shit. :)) before any jabs the nurse would ask a whole bunch of questions right. once she asked "so, anything wrong with you?" me: no! (i heard stella and jess giggling giggling.) what?!? stella: hahahaha. actually uh. got a lot of things wrong with her. jess: yea... hahaha. but the nurse was cool. she just smiled. hahaa. fun i tell you. they were nice. helping me carry my bag after im done. :))
today today. OMG! YES MAN! hahahaahahhaha! the ducati part was superhilarious sia! hahahah! that was the last part. ahahahahaaha! need to watch it to know it. overall, a very very enjoyable watch. and i just realized, the movie-goers just now like no sense of humour man. you could hear our row laughing non stop throughout the movie. especially from jess. i dont know why her laugh like very high pitch today. hahaha. andy and stella a bit quiet uh. but could feel their motions. hahaa. the whole damn row vibrated. but i tell you, once it reached the ducati part the other people on our row probably would not be able to eat their popcorn. ive always wondered what it would be like to laugh till all your popcorns fly! popcorn confetti? heh. we were slamming against the chairs and all. hahaha. it was that funny. nice nice nice nice nice! i still havent watched twilight though. i dont know why we didnt watch it just now. but hopefully. just hopefully. next friday. twilight. or any other day that im cmg to school. hahha. i think i should be able to watch it alone. hahaha. k maybe not. blueks. apparently the boys in my amic lab group think twilight is sissy-ish and cheesy. hahaa. especially that ker wee. whattttt......... how could he say that. hahahaa.
oh gosh. if only i had tickets for fahrenheit tonight. :'(( saddened.
gtg. bye!
{ 8:41 PM }
so am i still waiting?
Thursday, December 18, 2008
apparently yea. for ms jessica pang huimin! WAKE UP LA JESS! waiting for her sms to go get a blood test and a tetanus jab. mahahaha. im so excited to get jabbed again. :))
youtube-ing isnt so bad. im waiting for someone to send me the pretender by foo fighters too.
bye!
what if i say im not like the others? what if i say im not just another one of your plays? youre the pretender what if i say that ill never surrender?
{ 10:22 AM }
slut-proof and twilight.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
seriously seriously, my computer. is. slut-proof! everytime i open to read a blog of one, it loads very very slow-ish. lags like crazy. and ill probably close the damn window. hahaha. its like telepathy with my desktop man. it knows the people i dont fancy looking at but i want to just go ahead and read what theyre up to. mahahaha. again, i know its pathetic but that's what two weeks of school-less days make you do.
and my hope of watching twilight today was crushed. hahaha. postponed to friday. after amic lab. man i love amic lab. hahaha. if not for you amic lab, ill probably be cooped up at home eating all the hershey's kisses and drinking nothing but strawberry yoghurt milk. hahahaa. a bit too long uh. schedule for friday? ten to 12 max, amic lab. after 12, twilight yaw! :))
bye loves.
{ 11:01 AM }
kevjumba?
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
my intention to come online today was to do my amic essay. im on the cdc website. but its kind of minimized to the bottom of the screen! im not even opening it to read. its boring!
and then i went to youtube to watch videos. music videos. but i sidetracked that for one hour? yea. so here i am now. watching kevjumba on youtube. hahaha. i particularly like the stereotypical names with ben video. seriously funny stuff laaa.
hahaha. entertaining guy and friend. :))
{ 3:00 PM }
here's how my day went.
Monday, December 15, 2008
i just got back from school. amic lab amic lab. somehow, our tubes went missing again. basket. now no blanks, need to redo the whole media bottle. -_-" i think the bottle needs to have some sort of electric currents running through the surface while not in use. sheesh!
anyway nevermind about that.
after lab, badminton! mahahaha. fun uh. but tiring. and sweaty. sweat and long sleeves so dont go together. so after the first to tenth sweat broke, i stopped. hehehe. cannot tahan man. then jess and stella were playing wearing slippers. i was sitting with andy. only the two of them playing in the whole big court. the rest of the people were taking a break. hah! inactive people. and there was an announcement. it went something like "excuse me, may i have your attention please? court two, please remove your slippers." hahaha. damn funny uh!
i dont know if they really went ahead with playing squash. i left first. to tm alone. haaha. first off, THE TOILET! first floor ladies' toilet was packed. went to lvl 2. not that empty either but its better. heh. whatever la. desperate times call for desperate measures. then to watsons buy eyeliner. bla bla bla. TIMES BOOKSTORE! hahahha. the guy behind the counter quite cute uh. hahahaha. im so going back to times. to buy a book. :)) in need of one. and lastly to bk. on the way there bumped into cheryl's classmates who i talked to briefly during lab just now. hahaha. weird how he probably dont even know my name, yet we could talk. hahaha. off to bk! the girl behind the counter super friendly uh. hahaha. whats up with the people working behind counters today?! so anyway, she friendly. yea thats all i can say. its their job. hahaha. i can officially finish a double whopper meal in less than half an hour. maybe lesser even? hahhaa.
bye people!
{ 3:53 PM }
HAPPY HOLIDAYS!
Saturday, December 13, 2008
i am full. filled to the brim. one more grain of rice. and youll see all of my food again, in maybe a different form.
just now was awesome. food food, food food food. :))
after that we went through some old photos. all my supercute baby photos. hahaa. blueks. ahhh well.
life's good again. everyone is talking to everyone. ok well maybe not all that good. but talking is a start, really. a real great start.
seriously, some people should just stop looking for trouble. hahaha. it gets amusing to see how one could act so oblivious as to pursue it till so far. or so she thinks. you dont want to know what she's like and what she thinks of you. hahahahaha. but i really want you to get a little taste of things. i hope one day you get to meet her. land yourself into a self destructing speech. one that might be so rightsmacked, you wish you werent even involved in the first place. and in the end, youll have to pick up what little respect you have left. on your own. because youre just like someone i know. you people think youre so smart. you think that lying is the solution to everything. hahaha. we keep ourselves entertained everytime we get to know what little "creative" story you spent probably like, weeks? to develop. i know what the ending is going to be like. but the journey to it is way better. the chase is more interesting than the catch itself right? :)) good luck _________, youll need it.
hahahahaa. ahhhhh life's full of clowns.
p.s HAPPY HOLIDAYS! :))
{ 10:43 PM }
change is good, right?
Friday, December 12, 2008
FINALLY! the moment ive been waiting for! actually it happened like 4 hours ago but hahaha, YES AH! TERM TESTS OVER! haahaa. i have a very realistic gut feeling it's going to be just like 1.1 all over again. when we all could score single digits for term tests and not worry that much. mahahaha. good times aye? :p
anyway. i think i need to change. seriously. no more slacking and shit. k maybe minimize the slacking. taking it all in one go is damn drastic uh. going to start by doing my homework.
hahaha.
remember uh term break homework. AMIC ESSAY! :))
check them out. searched by AZEE-LO. hahaha. and the drummer is cute. :)) versaemerge-the authors
bye!
{ 7:58 PM }
Thursday, December 11, 2008
i think this is nice. :)) dj tiesto!
{ 8:26 PM }
and we mugged.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
two groups so far for the abchem presentation slides. might as well grab as much slides as possible since its open book. ahaaha. and im still not done with mbio. just realised mct left topic 5 only because the rest somewhat studied during quiz 1 revision. so yea that's a bit comforting to know. hahaha. i truly am lying to myself. hahaah. and that would probably lead to more procrastination. whatever laaaa. term tests term tests, since when did you own my sleepless nights? i used to remember back then, i wouldnt finish studying for each module and still got through. more denial. hahaha. just makin' myself feel better. k la.
tonight im going to study till 4am hopefully. anyone nice enough to accompany me could just text or call me at 4 after im done. ahaaha. then we could entertain ourselves till morning comes. :))
{ 7:35 PM }
YO BABE!
like i said to zahidah, it started off with a "YO!" from me. and guess what babe? we're talking abt sesame street barney and teletubbies. -_-" kind of nice eh talking to your azazfar. im supposed to be studying and cracking my brains. but look look. look where i am now. still stuck here. hahaha. talking random stuff to your bf. now i know why you two never stop talking. hahahhaa. good good. and dont worry. i DIDNT bitch about you okay! hahahaa. and i certainly didnt flirt. haahahaha. you stated your terms before anything started. and guess what babe? he said the exact same terms you said to me! hahahha! damn funny la you. p.s. ill take an acupuncture from a friend anytime no matter how much it might hurt. hahha. :))
{ 4:05 AM }
im damn pissed off.
in case some people havent noticed, she is already upset about things as it already is. you dont have to make matters worse by telling her something that she would dwell on for hours. seriously i dont get it with these people. why oh why do you not think very much? cant you see she is already sick? cant you see she is already unhappy about him? cant you see that we are trying hard enough to keep her going each and every day? cant you see that? please la... if you have nothing better to bitch about, then dont talk. noone will say that you are verbally handicapped. and about the person being bitched about. how dare you say that each and every one of your idiotic clones hate her. how dare you. you forget what she had done for your family. you forget all the trouble she went through just so that your mother gets what she wants. you forget all the time and effort she spent just so that she could feel accepted. you forget all the money she spent on all of you. if you want to forget everything so badly, i hope you have a long life filled with amnesia. may you grow up and change you bloody old faggot. seriously, i just pray that one day god gives you what you deserve. and for what you are putting her through. because good always wins you bastard. please. if you hate someone, the one thing to not do is to let anybody else know. it doesnt do anyone any good.
dear allah, give me the strength to be a solid support for my mother.
{ 12:53 AM }
GOOD MORNING SUNSHINES!
Saturday, December 6, 2008
i just watched pink' sober video. hahaha. yea kind of late i know. the other day i was watching it over at the library and stella caught a glimpse of my screen and she was all "eh eh! you enough enough." because it was at the scene where she was kissing herself and so on... hahaa. so i didnt watch the whole thing. i doubt that video is going to be played on mtv. seriously.
and i went to search for all american rejects' hope it gives you hell. "this video is not available in your country." -_-" irritating. so had to watch the making instead. that was good though. hahaha. tyson's lookin' good. ahahaha. yeaaa... he always does. hhahaha.
awwww man. it's only 10.40 on a saturday morning. im going to stick around mbio today no matter what. mahahahaa. cant wait for monday! :))
have a good day people. p.s. anybody kind enough to send me their abchem pbl presentations? i really need the notes. thank you.
yea old song i know. but its still as good. :))
{ 10:39 AM }
learn it the hard way.
Friday, December 5, 2008
now i realise what ive done. how green was i? ive ignored someone that had truly just wanted to be my friend. and if it werent for that one friend, i would probably have just followed my huge ego and be alone. i would have been all %#^$%@!#!!! laaaa. ( yea the 'laaa' must never be forgotten.) i would have made the mistakes i made all over again. now, ive decided that im going to go find that friend and apologise for being such a jerk. hopefully, just hopefully i might see that friend around school. it does help to have someone much older than you around. helps you to think a little.
today. gosh today. just a normal emo day for me. hahaha. yea. i didnt really talk to my friends. but thank you to rizal, phyllis, alice, huili, linxi, ker wee, guoxiang, jason, jorden and jia hao for even talking to me today. ahahaha. my morning was okay. guoxiang, ker wee, jorden and jia hao were there to help me through lab. hahaha. we had to do everything again and im FINALLY starting to get the hang of it and understand what the experiment really is about. so yeap, that was a plus. afternoon was hell. but then i went lecture with rizal and i feel bad for almost not talking that much. sorry man. and then after that phyllis asked me join her. nice timing girl. just when i was down and real lonely, phyllis texted me asking if i was at computer lab. so at computer lab i remembered i had no paper. went down to get them. wahhh i tell you. it's like morning traffic at the photocopy shop. bumped into linxi there. hahaha. so that's where she talked to me. up till before lecture. alice and huili somewhat made me happy just by being around them. it's all in the vibe. hahhaha. im just happy to have friendly classmates that talk to me no matter how glum i look. :))
and today i did the one thing that ive never done. but! it's one of the things that ive always wanted to try and do. sit on the stupid toilet seat and cry alone. never in my entire life have i broke down so badly over friends. doesnt this show how much you guys mean to me? im glad that has past. let's just put whats past where it belongs. um... yea well, in the past. hahaha.
i feel so motivated today. i might just finally "let him know" later. :))
damn. i love my friends. they give such great support.
{ 7:51 PM }
i know ive been a moodswinging bitch.
ahhh. day started off well. amic lab. mahahaa. good job uh amic lab. you somewhat cheered up my day. who knew?
well, i screwed up previously. like every other time i screwed up. and i know stella, zahidah and jess, you guys would surely read my blog. after the way i behaved yesterday, who wouldnt sia. and im going to apologise to you guys for that. im sorry okay. nobody knows what im going through at the moment. i dont blame you guys for posting bold letters on your blogs, refering to just me. but yea, personal problems overpower me. nothing to do with school. nothing to do with friends. just my own problem. and i know i am in a serious moodswinging mode right now. nobody to blame but me. im just sorry. how would you feel if you had to carry the same guilt each and every single day? i would be distraught. i am distraught.
and about the secret i blurted out. i thought she already knew since she knows like everything. if, that is even the correct secret. i know ive blurted out loads of things which are meant to be secrets. i know how that feels. so JESS, im really sorry man. i should have known better. i am not going to break off my friendship over a little mistake i did. so... to the babes, im not leaving all of you so soon. you need to try harder than that if you really want to get rid of me. :)) hahahahaha yup.
{ 11:32 AM }
part of the air cleared.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
these... we were supposed to be studying. but hahaha. notes are there for show. :))
{ 6:10 PM }
ups and downs.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
im done with my speech. yea my 'sucking up to everyone' speech. hahaha. i think it went okay. no cue cards! the only one without cue cards! hahahhaa. im feeling good about that. quite. hahaa. and hey, i love my blazer. hahaha. though its not really mine mine. but yea, i brought it to school today so it's kind of mine for the day. ahhh heck. nevermind. teeeheeeee. :))
and for the moment, i just dont know where all my guts went. even before i gather my thoughts to talk to him, im already thinking up of excuses on why i shouldnt. why i shouldnt talk to him at that time. why it is the wrong timing. what if i go off and run my mouth? what if i get so rude that i go overboard? why am i being so stubborn? scared maybe? scared i might appear judgamental? what my friend said is on repeat in my mind, every single day. "you need to let him know." i know i do. but why cant i just go ahead and just, do it damn it?! i feel so useless. real useless. it pains me to see someone i love get so sick over this. i feel so responsible for every sleepless night, every cough, every teardrop, everything. and im so sick of practically hearing the same things over and over again all the time. for once, i wish it could just stop. i want to put a halt to it. but i cant do this alone. if only that one person that i consider my support would help me out here. I CANT DO THIS ALONE.
{ 5:21 PM }
feeling lucky!
i am in abchem tutorial right now. supposed to be listening to presentations but yea, i just dont want any irrelevant info to mess up with my special occasions speech. what if i stopped halfway and totally blanked? talk about centrifugation? abt sds page? i might get through with that, if my tutor would still be awake. and the whole class doesnt start throwing tomatoes upon hearing "so, anyone need help with centrifugation?" gosh. oh, and im just glad i came school at 9 today with stella. im feeling lucky! firstly. we managed to catch the second last shuttle bus. secondly, only the two of us were on the bus so it kinda felt like a private bus to school. ahahhahaa. thirdly, i met weilin and asked why is everyone coming so early. "abchem tutorial." yea. that was her answer. hahahha. nothing else you know. but yea. doesnt make me feel less lucky. so, hopefully with this lucky streak, i can make a damn good speech later on. :)) later!
{ 11:55 AM }
arsenal won, im not wearing eyeliner and i just cut my hair. life's good. :))
Monday, December 1, 2008
ARSENAL WON AGAIN! woooooooo! against chelsea! chelsea got their ass whooped. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. van persie rocks la. hahhaha. too bad i didnt get to watch the full match. but i watched the final whistle go off and it was all so chaotic and nice. if only i were there to join in the celebration... hai. hahaha. and after the match the players were tossing their shirts into the crowds and omg! whoever got v.persie's shirt would be the most happiest person sia. :)) im just superduperubergoober happy that they won over chelsea. first man u, now chelsea. next liverpool? hahahaa.
olrite. i am at school at 9 in the morning. hahaha. just to use the computer? just so that i dont sleep my butt off too much? so that i dont have to make my bed? all three reasons? mahahaha. and like i said yesterday, im not going to wear eyeliner today. no eyeliner today. hahaha. not that big a deal, i know. nobody asked you to deal with it.
oh! i didnt know what got into me yesterday. just forgot about everything and i literally mean everything. some might call me unsound for doing this, but i call it boredom killer. i was messing around with my hair, mostly my fringe. and i just thought that it was too long and too boring. so i went to grab a pair of scissors and just started cutting. snipping off every inch that i didnt want to have righsmacked in my face. cut off quite a huge chunk. and it turned out like bangs. yaaaa. i kinda love it. and then i thought it looks like hayley william's fringe. hahaha. k maybe not that similar. my instincts were telling me to cut the back part too. i held my hair, trimmed it, and just threw it all away. finally i started to headbang a little and guess what? it fell right in place after i was done with all the bangings. that my friends, was the greatest fun i could ever have when im alone. haaha. funny how cutting your own hair actually does make you feel better. :)) ill post a picture up soon-ish.
well. i hope today is a good relaxed day. since i only got one hour of lesson later on. ahahhaa. bye!